mini update

It’s been a while since I wrote. I want to share this video I watched recently. It mirrored a lot of why I started this Substack and what I hope it’s about. I’m having trouble finding the words to explain why, so I’ll let Emma’s (person in the video) words speak for me.

It was actually really nerve racking posting this. One day I might start a second channel for this kind of stuff but I wanted to upload this here for various reasons. I want to share my insecurities and uncertainty on here because I don’t want Tokidoki Traveller to be a persona of myself where I am happy all of the time showing the best parts of my life. I want this channel to be a collage of me in all of my moments, good and bad. Some things I talk about in this video I have only talked about with 1 or 2 other people, but hey that’s what the internet’s for right?

This might be a bad move. But maybe the risk will be worth it in some way, even if that way is just being true to myself and my feelings.

Don’t get me wrong, my life is great and I am very happy most of the time. But everyone has down moments even in the best of lives.

I am so scared to post this.

Writing this post, I’ve spent a lot of time staring at the screen thinking what to say. A lot of it is wanting to say stuff, but not because I think it’d show how insecure I am. So I choose to leave it out, and think of something less scary to say. But, the thing about shame, and I talk about shame because that’s what making it hard to write, is that it holds less power over you when you don’t keep it in.

Anyways, update to the schedule. I’ll be releasing a newsletter on Fridays instead of the two separate posts, so see you next week.